So, it’s totally cool to post here even though it’s been a year since my last post, right? I don’t have to be so all-or-nothing. Life has been life. My kids are the most wonderful people on the planet. My oldest turned 13 the other day. My son is super into football and can keep all sorts of stats in his head. All three of them are so full of energy and imagination.
I think my mental problems are getting better. I’m coming off of a down time right now, but it was less severe than usual. I credit my progress to my medicine, the effort I put into fighting, time and my spirituality.
I think I’m turning into a real Pagan Witch. 🙂 I’m putting together a Book of Shadows (everything typed out and put in page protectors). I’ve been turning to simple spells more often and utilizing the phases of the moon. For about six months I was in a spiritually empty period. I was hurt because I asked Isis for help in a time of mental pain and she did not help me. I had just dipped my toe into the whole relationships with gods thing, and when she didn’t help I just thought I wasn’t going to beg someone for help who wasn’t going to help me, and then I just dropped everything Pagan or Witchy. Now I think it may have been the way I was asking, or that I was expecting an immediate response. I am coming to feel that God and Goddess want me to do things for myself so I can be strong. Which is a relief because I don’t want to be any deity’s lapdog. I still have my questions about why Isis did what she did, but overall she’s cool so I’m not going to cut her out of my life. I love her.
So, gay marriage is legal now in NC. I don’t really know how I feel about that. I think same-sex attraction is a psychological problem, one I’ve struggled with myself, so I don’t want to normalize it my making gay marriage legal. It might help kids with same-sex parents to be protected, though.
That’s all I want to write right now.